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I’m currently in the air, I’ll never get over the sense of wonder I feel when flying. We’re somewhere over Colorado right now and getting some nice turbulence becuase of the storms out here in the midwest, so that’s not all that great but flying itself sure is. Thanks to my spiffy little Suunto I know that the airplane’s cabin is pressurized at 8000 feet.

I have a half brother named David Lenz who I met when I was about seven or eight. I think I’m about 5 years older than him but I’m not exactly sure. He may or may not live in the Arlington Heights area of Illinois, just NW of Chicago proper. I’m going to try to track him down if I can. I’m not sure of the specifics but my mom lost him when he was young and I think he was foster cared out, so no visitation was allowed. So that’s one thing I’m going to Chicago for. The other things include the following; see my step mom, Laurie for the first time in about 10 years. See and meet some cousins from my mom’s side of the family who have been taking care of my grandma. See my grandma. See my mom’s grave. See the Cubs play at Wrigley for the first time since mom took Tina and I… way back when they didn’t have night games there.

An interesting thing was said to me recently. I was talking about finding David and I got the reply, “Are you sure you want to?”. To which I said, “Yeah, why wouldn’t I?” at this point she said, “You don’t know what he’s been through or what he may be.” This was a true statement. My mom was a rock and people too close to her broke themselves on her determination. Obviously David, not having my same dad wasn’t ‘rescued’ from that environment, he stayed and then was fostered out. I don’t know how hard that must have been on him, and I wish I could have known or helped him in some way.

Another way to look at it would be that all of my mom’s offspring are like her in the sense that we have some of her in us. I have faith that David, wherever he is and whatever he went through is still her son. Because he is her son I know that he was sufficient to weather any tribulations thrown at him. I’m looking forward to finding out.