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So, I really like to start of sentences with the word, so. Tomorrow is another attempt on Split Mt. It’s a beautiful place, made all the more appealing because of the sheer pain required to get near it. Things that are a challenge, things that aren’t easy, things that can’t be had are always those things that I want. I can’t get to the moon, I won’t ever stand on Mars, nor will I ever be the president of the United States, which makes me want those things even more. I can have a snickers bar right now, I can go out and watch some Battlestar Galactica (Great fucking show, the new one is simply the best thing I have ever seen on television), but I don’t want to do either, because I can. I can’t go out and buy a new camera to replace my broken 10d, which means I want to do exactly that.

I know I’m stubborn, I am my mother’s son after all. I am my mother, my step mother and I am my father. I can see both of their sets of flaws in me. Not that I’m blaming them for anything I have ever done, or not done. I can just see some traits and follow them back to their logical beginning with my parents. It’s too bad I can’t really do anything to correct those flaws.

I ask forgiveness from no one, I ask permission from no one. If I am told I can’t do something, you can damn well bet that’s the next thing I’m going to be doing. If I’m told not to do something, without a good reason, you can put money down that I’ll be doing that very thing as soon as possible. It’s not that I want to be an ass, or anything, it’s just the legacy of my mom left in me. It’s not that I can’t control myself, I just enjoy a challenge. I wish that I could talk to her, I think I could learn alot from just a brief conversation.

Anyway, onto Split Mountain, bitches. I’ve told myself I can’t make it, the approach is too damn steep and the peak too high. I’ve told myself that I’ve lost my edge, Gant is faster, stronger and better than me. I’ve told myself that my legs and back will hurt too much and it’s going to be too cold. I’ve told myself the pack will be too heavy and the peak too far away.

You know what I have to say to that.